hi my name is muhammad syafiq saad (dont ask me how i got here, i just did) i dont understand why nita said that because i think im wayyyyy more weird than her. like who am i kidding right? im the ultimate weird diet boy~
P.S I look best in blue
I'm tired of keeping up with you. I'm tired of rebutting, putting my point across. Tired of giving in, losing. Of having my patience tested. I'm really tired of having that ovewhelming fear get to me first thing in the morning. Doesn't it ever get to you like how it gets to me? I don't even know if you've realised that I've given up and that you've won. truth is, there's no way it'd be the other way around.
So I'm letting my guard down,
Take a break from trying.
Sometimes, that's all you really need.
Goodbye world, while I continue living in my world of isolation.
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You're always so full of yourself.
But this made me smile.
Thanks, Airhead.
Look. Just look at how gay and silly you've always been. You were the one who always made us laugh till we had stitches, irritate us to the point where everyone gets mad and swear they wouldnt talk to you anymore. But that was all fine, cause it was fun. Cause that was you overwhelmed with joy.
Do you know how horrible it feels to just sit behind a computer screen reading your depressing posts or texting you a message simply because that's pretty much all I can do for you right now? Comeon Di, pull yourself together already. People come and go, what's new? You deserve better, regardless whatever you have to say to defend him. We both know it, we both do. Sometimes, being left abandoned by someone you really love is good for the soul. You'll realise what you're really worth, not in anyone's eyes but your own.
It's been a rough ride, but I know you're up for it. You always are cause your super DI duper strong! (stop frowning, you should start smiling already) But really, you've been through so much you cant just crumble at this one. We make mistakes once or twice, okay maybe even thrice, but who cares as long as we learn something from it. So dont dwell on it anymore, life's toooo unpredictable to hold on to something unworthy like that.
(to dwell on yesterday's pleasures is to risk missing out on pleasures of the moment, and to dwell on past pains and tragedies is a pointless waste of energy and time)
P.S I'll give you first-hands from now on okay if it makes you happy. you're my pillar of strength too so you have to stay strong. Im behind you all the way ♥
This is fifth time Im wishing you a blessed birthday. Time no longer flies, it moves wayyyyyyy too fast its a shame that the thought of catching up with it even crosses our minds. I've always had that distinct memory of us dreading the fact that we had to endure the sight of each other 24/7. Everywhere we went, everything we did we were inseparable. (ps; this is no exaggeration) Its a good thing yes, but not when youre left with no other choice. We both agreed on this didnt we, Diy? From being in the same class; sec1-sec4 + same cca +paired up as partners to the cherry that topped it all- the discovery that we were both related, it was very much a handful and indeed overwhelming.
I remember all the arguments, inane outbursts, random moodswings, the horrible tantrums. They were so regular, they made it to our our daily routine. But if there's one thing Im proud of at the end of the day, its the fact that I grew immune to them allllllllll."Stuck" was a word we used umpteenth times on each other, you havent forgotten this part have you? Now, we finally got our wish Diy. And its not as fruitful as I imagined it to be. We're no longer stuck with each other. Now, I dont fight with anyone as often as before (with exceptions of some childish guys). I dont argue about minor lame issues like who's taste is better about anything and everything under the sun. I dont get to rest my arms on a shoulder thats of the right height anymore, if yknow what I mean. There's a lot that I dont do so often as before. I miss doing these things with you you little twit, regardless the pain and annoyance you made me go through.
Youre all big and old and seventeen now. Go all out in everything that you do. Let nothing get the best out of you. I know youre having a good time in cj, Im so happy for you! I guess you've finally learnt how to be friendly aye 8P (its about time anyway) Oh oh if you wanna send regards to your (ex) crushes, I'd willingly help you do the favour hehehehehe. I mean comeon, i know you wanna know how their doing right! ahem. Doesnt mean you're one seven and no longer stuck with me now you can forget me. Forget me and (i'll bash you up) Dont change too much either k, youre fine the way you are. But maybe the moodswings part....... a little change will help.
I ♥ 24/7 LIFELINE. stay short.
Before anything, sorry I couldnt find a less-minah photo of you my self-proclaimed minahjambu. Its not as easy as you think it is yknow ;p I dont know why, but I've always been protective of you. Its like you're this small child who's so fragile and, just very fragile. I've told you this before; Whatever you do, dont ever lose yourself. Sometimes you've just got to put yourself first before the rest. Sometimes its about your happiness and not about what others might think of you. You know that I dont agree with some of the decisions that you've made for yourself and I know there's only so much I can do to change your mind. As much as I disapprove, whatever that makes you happy brings joy to me too. But at the end of the day, i'll be there if you need that shoulder to cry on, you susumon! Be a good girl ♥
after so long,
17's no big deal
real men can take jokes
blue's cool
Medan from the 3rd to 8th. Hopefully I'll return safely with a greater appreciation for life and everything that I've got within my reach right now. It's gonna be an interesting eye-opener. Count my friends and I in your prayers :)
(Taiwan must be nice) Oh btw Stalker, the next time you wanna blog for me, please rmb that I dont; (i) post pictures of myself alone (ii) use multiple colours though it lightens up the mood. Thanks anyway, it was thoughtful of you (though im sure you pretty much had nothing to do) :)